drained.

i might be coming home soon. i´ve been literally sick about every other week i've been here. two colds, one stomach flu, typhoid and amebiasis, all in 8-10 weeks. after finally getting over typhoid, i went to mexico city for a week and left with a sore throat and in coldsweats. at this point it´s financially difficult for me to remain in mexico, physically draining and mentally exhausting. i`ve been trying to stay positive and take it all with stride, but becoming ill again has broken my spirits once again. money i could use on travelling i´m using for medicines and doctors visits, time i could use for travelling is spent laying in bed, mental energy that could be used to reflect is wasted thinking about if i should remain in mexico or leave. i´m thinking of returning to the states for a few months and trying again, but don´t know if it`s wiser to stay put. i´m torn. frustrated. things don`t always go as planned, that's a given, the only thing i can do is try to make the best decision possible. i do know that there`s a saying in mexico that goes: ni afuerzas los zapatos entran. you can´t even force shoes to fit.